Where the Night Ends Page 16

  A part of me is hoping that wherever the future takes us that we will find a way to make it work. I can’t even entertain the idea that this will come to an end. When I think about my future, he’s part of every single scenario. I’m just not sure if it’s the same for him.

  As much as I want him to choose me, to pick a school close by so we can be together, I’d also never forgive myself for holding him back should he choose to stay behind for my sake. So it’s kind of a catch twenty-two. I can’t win either way, so I’ve made a deal with myself not to think too much on it until that time comes.

  “Hey.” Sebastian squeezes my hand. “Where’d you go?” he asks, clearly picking up on my suddenly sullen mood.

  “Nowhere. Sorry.” I shake it off, forcing a smile to my lips. “I’m just—nervous,” I admit, addressing another hot topic on my mind right now.

  “There’s no pressure here, Tess, you know that,” he reassures me.

  “No, I know. That’s not it. I want to, Sebastian. I really want to,” I say, knowing I don’t need to say exactly what it is I want to do.

  “It’s normal to be nervous. And if you decide tonight’s not the night, I’m not going to be upset. I planned this to spend time with you, not to pressure you into anything.”

  “I love you.” The statement just leaves my lips without thought. I don’t need to think about loving Sebastian or sharing the words with him, it’s one part of our relationship that comes effortlessly.

  “I love you more.” He grins.

  “Not possible.”

  “Very possible.”

  “You’re delusional.” I laugh, loving this back and forth banter we always share when one person tells the other they love them. It’s like our thing now.

  “Shut up and look.” Sebastian chuckles, gesturing out the windshield where the city is now in full view.

  “Wow.” I lean forward, taking it all in.

  “I still can’t believe you’ve lived less than an hour from the city your entire life and you’ve never once been here.”

  “Never had a real reason to visit.” I shrug. “Plus, Mom hates city traffic. Every time we’ve talked about coming here to see a play or visit the zoo, she’s always talked me into going somewhere else. I think deep down the city just reminds her too much of my dad considering this is where they met.”

  “Makes sense. It was their place,” he says. “And now it’s going to be ours.”

  I smile, not realizing how much I wanted a connection to my parents’ past until now. I love the thought that a place that once was so special to them will now be special to me and Sebastian. No matter what happens, he will always be the first person who pops into my head anytime I think of New York.

  ***

  We arrive at the Westin at Times Square just after five o’clock. Sebastian reserved us a suite that is unlike any hotel room I’ve ever seen. Every window gives off an amazing view of the city. There’s even a large window offering a breathtaking view from the jetted tub in the bathroom. Every inch of the room is pure perfection. I can’t even begin to imagine what one night at a place like this cost. Something tells me I don’t want to know.

  After walking around the expansive space and looking in every nook and cranny, I reenter the main living space to find Sebastian standing next to the largest set of windows positioned in the center of the room, his hands shoved in his jean pockets as he looks out over the city.

  My breath catches in my throat at how incredible he looks standing there, the beautiful city the perfect backdrop for someone like him. When he senses my eyes on him, he turns his head in my direction, a slow smile pulling at the corners of his mouth.

  “Come here.” He extends his arm, waiting until I’m securely tucked into his side before wrapping it around my shoulders.

  “This place is incredible, Sebastian.” I slide my arms around his middle, squeezing him tightly. “Everything is so beautiful. And this view—god, it’s breathtaking.”

  “It is, isn’t it?” I look up to find him looking down at me. “The most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.” His eyes bore into mine.

  “I think you’re looking at the wrong view,” I tease, feeling squeamish under his gaze.

  “I think you are.” He grins, turning in our embrace so that are bodies are now pressed front to front.

  Reaching out, he tucks my hair over my shoulder, letting his hand linger on the side of my neck.

  “I can’t tell you how amazing it feels to be here with you like this.” His hand slides up my jaw before the pad of his thumb traces along my lower lip. “I love you so fucking much, Tess.”

  “I love you more.” I smile when he shakes his head knowingly at me.

  “What do you say we go see Times Square?” he suggests.

  “I have another idea in mind.” I wiggle my eyebrows suggestively at him.

  “Don’t tempt me, Tess. I brought you here to see the city, not the inside of this hotel room. But if you keep looking at me like that we’ll likely never leave.”

  “I think I like the sound of that.” I reach up and wrap my arms around the back of his neck, pulling his face down to mine. “Make love to me, Sebastian,” I whisper against his mouth. “Right here, right now. I don’t want to wait another second.”

  A groan vibrates from deep in his throat. He hesitates only seconds before his lips crash down on mine. It’s slow at first, his tongue dancing lazily against mine, but it doesn’t take long before the kiss morphs into something so intense I can feel it all the way to my core.

  He slowly strips me bare, kissing each section of my body as the layers of clothing are removed—my shoulder, my collarbone, the swell of my breasts. The further down he goes the more the anticipation in my stomach grows.

  Before Sebastian, before his touch and his kiss, I didn’t know it was possible to feel like this—for my body to react so intensely to another person. It’s like I’m an instrument and Sebastian knows how to play me with absolute precision, every note nothing short of perfection.

  With shaky hands, I work the front of his pants open, swallowing up the deep moan that vibrates from his mouth into mine when I slide my hand inside the material of his boxer briefs and wrap my hand around his thick erection.

  I work my hand up and down slowly, egged on by his reaction to my touch and how badly I can tell he wants this. Hell, I want it, too. I want it more than I think I’ve ever wanted anything else in my entire life.

  No words can describe what Sebastian makes me feel, both emotionally and physically. To lump that together, to finally bring the physical and the emotional into the same playing field, makes everything feel that much more intense, that much more special, that much more incredible.

  When Sebastian has finally rid himself of the rest of his clothes, he guides me onto the bed, my bare back coming to rest on top of the plush cream comforter. His eyes trail down me with so much heat I swear I can feel they’re path burning into my skin.

  His eyes are heavy, his breathing labored, and when he starts crawling up my body I feel like my heart is seconds away from beating out of my chest. The nervous butterflies in my stomach now feel like a large flock of birds, and my bottom lip feels raw from kneading it nervously between my teeth.

  After rolling on a condom, Sebastian settles between my thighs, supporting most of his weight on his forearms that are positioned on either side of me.

  “Are you sure about this, Tess?” His voice is strained as his heaviness presses against me.

  “I’m sure.” I nod frantically, wrapping my hand around the back of his neck to pull his face back down. “I’m sure,” I say again, this time a whisper against his mouth before I press my lips to his.

  Within seconds Sebastian is sliding inside of me—inch by painful inch— until I feel so full it feels like I’m being split apart from the inside out. Sebastian doesn’t stop until he’s planted all the way inside, pulling back to look down at me.

  “God, you feel so perfect, Tess.” He kisses me. �
��Tell me you’re okay. I can’t move until I know you’re okay.” He practically whimpers, like it’s killing him not to move.

  “I’m okay,” I reassure him, crying out in both pleasure and pain when he pulls out and pushes all the way back in, in one swift motion.

  “Tess.”

  “Keep going,” I plead when Sebastian hesitates. “Please just keep going.”

  He repeats the same movement only this time he doesn’t stop once he’s buried inside me again. When he pulls out, he immediately pushes back in, working up a slow, steady rhythm. I swear I can feel every inch of him as he slides inside and then drags slowly out, working my body in a way I didn’t know was possible. The pain and pleasure melding together until I can’t tell where one ends and the other begins.

  I don’t know if minutes pass or only seconds—all I know is that the deep pressure inside me continues to build to an almost unbearable weight. Each thrust inward and each pull out has my eyes blurring and my mind unable to focus on anything but that feeling. A slow burn deep in my belly, something so intense I find myself having trouble even remembering to breathe.

  “Sebastian.” It’s a strangled cry, void of any shame or embarrassment. I don’t even mean to say anything, but as the pleasure starts to peak I find myself needing just to say something, needing to ground myself to the earth because I feel at risk of floating away.

  “I love you, Tess. God, I fucking love you.” Sebastian increases his speed, hitting me even deeper, causing another cry to rip from my throat.

  “I love you. Sebastian…” I don’t get to finish whatever it is I’m trying to say next because at that very moment everything reaches a head, and I feel like an explosion goes off inside me. My entire body convulses, and I grip Sebastian harder, drowning in the waves that crash over me again and again.

  It’s like the second I lose control Sebastian falls over the edge with me, groaning against my neck about how perfect I feel, how good I make him feel, how much he loves me. And then his chest is on mine, and he’s struggling to catch his breath as we both come down from the highest of all highs.

  It’s in that moment, our sweaty bodies pressed together, Sebastian’s heart beating erratically against my own, that I truly let myself embrace the power that this boy has over me. It used to terrify me, but now—after this, after feeling connected to him in a way I never have another human soul, I feel anything but scared. Sebastian was made for me and I for him—I’ve never been more certain about this fact than I am right now.

  ***

  “What about that one?” I point at another building perfectly displayed from my view out of the bathroom window.

  “I’m not sure about that one.” His chest vibrates against my back as he speaks, his hands sliding up and down my bare arms.

  The last couple hours have been the most incredible in my life. Being with Sebastian, giving him a part of me that I’ve never shared with anyone, was beyond anything I could’ve imagined in my wildest dreams.

  Courtney and Bree had told me stories about their first times and other experiences beyond that, but nothing about sex with Sebastian was even close to what they had said. It was on an entirely different level altogether. But then again, that’s the way everything is with Sebastian. Every feeling is intensified, every sensation heightened.

  After we made love for the second time, Sebastian ran us a hot bath which is where we’ve been for the last twenty minutes or so, staring out at the incredible view. Eventually, I started quizzing him about the buildings that were within our view, surprised to find that he knows what almost every single one is.

  “What do you say we get cleaned up, and I take you out for a nice dinner?” Sebastian speaks again, pressing his lips to the side of my neck. “There’s this amazing little Italian restaurant just a couple blocks from here.”

  “I think that sounds perfect.” I nearly groan at the thought of eating.

  “Afterward we can walk around for a little while. I’d say we have at least an hour of sunlight left. Then maybe we can check out early and spend the morning in the city. What time is your mom expecting you home?”

  “She works until six and then will probably sleep until three or four in the afternoon so we should be good until then. We’ll just need to head back sometime after lunch maybe.”

  “Perfect.” His hands slide down my arms and across my bare chest, causing my skin to prickle under his touch. “Let’s go eat already. The sooner we do, the sooner I can get back here and plant myself inside of you again.”

  “You’re insatiable.” I giggle when he nibbles my earlobe with his teeth.

  “Damn right I am, only for you, baby. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to get enough of you. This body,” he slides one hand across my stomach and then lower, caressing me beneath the water. “It’s like it was made just for me.

  “I think you might be right.” I instantly come alive under his touch.

  “Tess,” he groans into my ear, clearly egged on by my reaction to him. “If you keep riding my hand like that we’re never going to get out of here.” He nips at the flesh below my ear.

  “I think that might be okay.” My body takes over, seeking a need I know only Sebastian’s touch can fill.

  When he abruptly pulls his hand away and stands, water splashing over the sides of the tub, I instantly object.

  “What are you doing?” I look up to see him wrapping a towel around his waist.

  “I promised to show you the city, and that’s what we’re going to do. Even if it fucking kills me.” He looks down at my naked body, heat in his eyes. “But when we get back, you’re not going to be able to pry me off of you for the remainder of the night.”

  “You promise?” I smile innocently, making no attempt to get out of the tub.

  “Baby, I do more than just promise.” He smiles at me wickedly, grabbing another towel before extending his hand to me and helping me out of the bath.

  ***

  “Well, what I tell ya?” Sebastian entwines his gloved fingers with mine as we make our way out of the restaurant and onto the rather crowded sidewalk.

  “Amazing.” I rub my overly full belly, not sure if I could feel any more perfect than I do at this very moment.

  Unfortunately, due to the long wait for dinner, the sun has now set and we’ve lost what little hour of daylight we thought we’d have left. But the great thing about New York is it’s even more alive at night.

  Snuggling deeper into Sebastian’s side when a cold breeze whips around us, he drops my hand and wraps his arm around my shoulders as he steers me to the right and then turns again about two blocks up.

  The lights of the city illuminate the buildings, and even though it’s after nine o’clock it could very well be the middle of the afternoon.

  We spend the next two hours walking around, Sebastian showing me all the shops and famous landmarks I’ve only ever seen in movies. We spend a particularly long amount of time looking at all the billboards while Sebastian tells me about some of his favorite times visiting the city as a child. Of course, that was back when he lived in California and had to take a five-hour flight to get here.

  “Do you miss it? California, I mean?” I ask when he falls silent next to me.

  “Not as much as I used to.” He shrugs. “Though I do miss the warmer temperatures. I hate the winter.” He blows out a breath which instantly fogs from the cold.

  “I don’t know. I think I like winter—sometimes anyway. I love when there’s a fresh snow and everything is covered in white. Snuggling up next to the window with a book and a cup of hot chocolate.” I smile at the thought. “But I can see how someone who isn’t used to the cold would not be as fond of it. I’ve lived here my entire life and still have a hard time adjusting when the weather changes.” I pause, quickly adding, “Do you think you’ll make it back to California someday?”

  “Yeah,” he answers without hesitation. “I mean, that is if you’re up for living on the west coast.” He nudges his shoulder
against mine.

  “Does that mean you’re planning on including me in your future?” I say teasingly, but it’s a question I’ve been dying to ask.

  “There is no part of my future that I don’t see you in, Tess.” He turns toward me, resting his gloved hand on my cheek. “You are my future.” He stares at me for a long moment before finally continuing, “For the longest time, I thought California was the only place I’d ever be happy. It was home and all I wanted to do was go back there. But that was before I met you. You’re my home now.” His words strike something deep inside of me, a reassurance I hadn’t realized I needed until this very moment. “Do I want to go back someday; yes, I’d like to. But as long as you’re by my side I’ll be happy anywhere.”

  “Even if you have to endure negative temperatures?” I tease.

  “Guess it just means we’ll have to stay stocked on fuzzy blankets and lots of hot chocolate.” He grins sweetly. “You’re my home, Tess,” he repeats.

  “And you are mine.” I smile up at him, my body choosing that exact moment to shiver.

  “Come on, let’s get you back to the hotel room and get you warmed up. It’s freezing out here. Too bad we don’t have any hot chocolate right now. Then again, I bet we can order some from room service.”

  “I can think of a few ways you can warm me up pretty quickly without any type of hot beverage,” I tease, snuggling into his side as he leads us back in the direction of the hotel.

  “Oh, trust me, Tess, so can I.” Something wicked crosses over his face, and my stomach instantly twists in anticipation.

  We can’t get back to the hotel fast enough.

  The weeks that follow our trip to New York are some of the happiest of my life. Sebastian has shown me the kind of love I only thought existed in romance books and fairy-tales. He’s turned out to be the polar opposite of who I once thought he was and exactly what I had been missing in my life. But I’m also painfully aware that our days together could very well be numbered.